Here I am again, sitting in front of another body of water wondering how I got dealt this hand. This time the tide won’t rise so I don’t have to worry about destroying things. This body of water is so small it doesn’t have a name. As a matter of fact, you could live here in Scottsdale Arizona and not even know it exists.
Like most people, I realize I’m not putting forward as much effort as I could in all aspects of my life. I would like to believe that I am putting a valiant effort into achieving excellence but my internal dialog tends to disagree. On the other hand, I feel like if I met all the demands of my internal dialog it would switch up on me like a predictable monster and tell me that the accomplishments weren’t right. Case in point; when I put extra effort toward generating revenue so my family can live their most convenient life my internal dialog reminds me that my daughter is only 2,000 days old today, my son is only 900 days old and both of them will grow beyond today so I only have today to appreciate it.
I want to believe that realizing this struggle, being able to fight through it, is the reason why life is so good. Twenty years ago I lacked this sense of purpose and it did not serve me well. The stress of today is far less and I have to attribute that to personal growth combined with having created a family.
I’m not sure what I’m trying to convey with this post but I will continue to try and achieve the best possible outcome in life. Being able to sit by myself in nature and appreciate the state of things is something I wish I could bless everyone with.